you gonna hear this, its your lost for not listening to it. so, listen!
trust me, its really nice to the MAX!
if u dont find it nice, den... too bad~! =)

ENJOY!


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O DEAR! WHY AM I WAITING FOR SOMEONE'S MSG LEH?!
OMGOMG!
*slap at myself* WE ARE FRIENDS ONLY, FRIENDS ONLY YA=D

and i started to used "my dear" to almost everyone! last time i only use on ladies, now even guys i also use on them. will i give them the wrong impression?
hopefully i wont man=)

Scene 1
me and one of my colleague were talking about some stuff, suddenly "no la my dear, should be blah blah" its not sensor words, just that i've forgotten wad we were talking about.after that sentence, in my heart, it pop out "O.O!" hahah!

so, if i use on any of the guys, please dont "woohoo~!" okay? is just that i love almost everyone=)

lastly, thank God for supporting me, thank God for Jem for he also supports me. bcos, i get tired and weary easily. They are there when im falling=)

good ta nites!=D

another negative post again.
its unhealthy to read my blog though=p
but who else can i rant to? yupps, God=) can i rant on blog too?=(

CAN YOU TEACH ME HOW TO FORGIVE SOMEONE? THAT SOMEONE TOLD SOMEONE SOMETHING WHICH IS COMMON SENSE THAT IT SHOULD BE KEPT ASIDE AND NOT TO SPREAD? N COS OF SOMEONE SPREADING SOMETHING TO SOMEONE ABOUT SOMETHING SHOULDNT BE SPREADED OUT, IM SO TROUBLED NOW. CAN U TEACH ME HOW TO FORGIVE? I SERIOUSLY HATE/DISLIKE SOMEONE. confusing? dont try to understand den:)

oya, to my surprise, i just know that actually people do read my blog. ah uh! you know who you are~! haha!

I love my CG so much.. how much? come n touch my heart and you'll know how much i love them. and seriously i love everyone *exception to somebody=P*, touch my heart n you'll know how much i love every single one of you. just of small obstacle, i feel like giving up, but i can feel that God is lifting me up. but i feel like changing ahem(want to know wads that ahem? come and ask me).
i just want to leave the place where there isnt rumors/gossips about me n him.
im so tired,but im gonna stay strong, bcos i love Jem *wait, dont think too far alright?*, i want to stay strong to help him take care of the members as he is going to get busy for his wedding preparations.

how i wish God You'll bring me to a place where there is only You n me.
with You, i felt so secured.
how i wish God, you could really give me a real physical hug.
Your Hug, is the most precious thing on earth.
and why am i waiting for something which i shouldnt be waiting?
alright, stay cute and single~!=D

IM EATING CHOCOLATE NOW TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY.

bcos i heard from people and news that eating chocolate and drink plain water can make you happy.
so im trying to eat and drink to make myself as happy as possible!
bcos now IM SO TROUBLED.

blog rant. its way too long, u dont have to read it.


i feel bad.
i feel so bad.
weds, there was a guy from australia came to EH and bought some stuff from me.
and the next day(thurs), he came back again to EH and bought things from me, and also asked me about where is the clubs in Singapore, so I told him around Clarke Quay there are alot and intro him the one n only club i've went b4 and that is Double O. and asked if im working tmr, so i said yes.
and i got a feeling that he will ask me to go club with him, well that day he didnt *thank God!* and again, he asked the same question if im working tmr, so i said yes but is at Ion.
the next day again(Fri), he came to CA to look for me at around 930. Asking me to go club with him. omy! i kinda rejected but wasnt obvious enough! and THANK GOD, another customer cutted our conversation and was busy serving the lady. after which, i pretended to be busy and wanting to change 'position' with Desmond(he is helping out with Lilian). and that customer left quietly.

i felt so bad~ not that i want to go with him, but bcos he is not local and he is going alone which is diao~ going club alone is a NONO thing!
if i really go with a stranger?! must be kidding! i wont ever do that.
but still, i hope he do enjoy himself in Singapore! and tmr(Sat) he will be flying back to Australia already. *Bon Voyage!*


there are so many things to worry,
i feel that im working like nobody business.
im working longer and more days den my eldest sis, but my pay is still way below 1k.
im working longer and more days yet earn lesser den her.
but of cos~ she got a diploma and experiences more than me!
money is so hard to earn. i got to be very independent already..
i think i wont be taking allowance from my sister soon. when? i dont know.
and the fees of private O looks like more dear than ACS..
i feel like working forever already, i dont feel like studying.
but i know that i cant, and i wont stop studying until i get a diploma/degree.
my heart is still not strong enough to take a connect grp while working while studying. Jem, thanks for standing with me when im weak.
dont pass me the whole connect grp yet, bcos i know i take longer time to learn, to lead, to be wise den others do.
and i still owe my sister and friend and dental money, though stil left abit, i just want to settle it FAST so that the stones in my heart wont be that heavy. thank God, i think im able to pay all my debts after this month. bcos i've been working like a full timer.
and please pray hard that this coming tues im able to find a replacement for i REALLY WANTS to go for leaders meeting.=(


always i see an uncle especially skinny and not very tall, i will be thinking that is my dad! hahaha! i got so many dads on the road man! or mayb i exaggerated a little. mayb i should phrase it that every uncle will reminds me of my daddy?
well, i love him SO much. so much.


dont remind me of that, my heart is so pain that i hardly can breathe.


well, dont worry. though this post i sounded really negative, i'll always recover the next day!

and IF you've read through every single word, from the top til here, God bless you man! that means u really care for me. LOVE YOU LA! if you are a guy, i'll love you as my brother, if you're a lady, i'll love you as my sister.
in my life, i only have ONE BOYFRIEND. and that is Jesus,God. hahahaha!

anyway, im really tired.. working too much! haha!
nights!